Nightmares

Dream is a sleep fruit; well those what people from my country used to say. Dream can mean anything, some people believe it predicts of what will be happened next. Tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, next year or whenever.. when it seems to be happened, we will have some de javu. While others think it is past experience flow through your mind about what happened to you before mixing new stories. Or maybe it's just some random thoughts?

Well those three things can be right at the time or maybe otherwise? But i dont't know which one happens and when. Between dreams that are happened, there are few with not so good story lied. We call it nightmare. Ghosts, phobias, sad things or any bad thing. I have one that is haunting me quite bad. I even got a lil bit "jet lag" after having it, it stunned me for a while.

You know, i have my biggest regret in my life since today. One day before my Opa is passed away, he asked a favor that i failed to do. I disappointed him.. and his hoping face is haunting me. I didn't even care that time for what he was hoping me for. If only i can turn back time to just make him happy that one day. If only.

My mistake can never be redeemed. That sad experience brings me nightmares! Sometime i dreamt about having feeling one of my Grand Parent are having such a bad time that caused their dead.. then i realised it was just a nightmare- i realised it while dreaming still. In that moment i became so sad, but at the same time i got happy for being lucky that at least one of my Grand Parent was still alive.

The truth is both of them are already passed away years ago. I got stunned in my dream, for a while i thought one of them is till alive, so i can redeem my mistake to make at least one of them happy. Sadly they're passed away and i can do nothing. I don't know how to end it and always hope a chance to redeem it.